Coil, curl and cope

Me oh my this unhappy girl. Obstinate and unrelenting. I haven't felt like this since high school when I truly just didn't want to go. I have to do something, I can't just do nothing. Money has to be earned, bills paid, cat food supplied. I come home to my home and I fall in love. There is no way I would ever let it go. I just want to work, do something amazing again. I want to, need to plan, attend meetings, make phone calls and decisions. I'm not challenged enough and school is no long exciting and quant. It's like an uncool hanger-on that is keeping me from doing the things that I want to and feel I need to do right now. I'm just unhappy though. I just am.