Gun Shy

Yesterday was Thursday, today is amazing. WIDOWSPEAK is playing in Salt Lake City tonight and while they were supposed to be booked at a regular venue it didn't work out and now they are playing around the corner from my house. I am so thrilled to get to see them and meet them, I love it when things are just sort of perfect in that way. House parties never hurt for fun anyway and this one will be epic I am sure.
My two cousins are driving in from Tulsa, Oklahoma tomorrow afternoon/ evening and I planned on us all going dancing at 80's night at Urban Lounge but we will see. I have an appt. in the morning to meet with the coordinator of the venue I want to have my Oma's 80th birthday at. It is going to be expensive but I really don't care, I just want her to finally see that no we don't take you for granted, no you aren't unimportant to us, and YES we all gathered here for you Oma, all for you. I feel excited and lucky and pretty and good and all the things I wanted to experience are happening and they are happening one by one, little by little. If this much progress has already occurred in the seven months that I have been here I can't imagine what next year or the next five years will bring. Sometimes when you hear your favorite song on the radio you think maybe it was playing only for you, just for your hearts and ears and fingers to strum along to. I feel that way about every challenge, heartbreak, obstacle, and barrier now. It was all there, just for me to conquer and get past so that I could see really and finally how fucking strong I am and that there are no limits when it comes to this girl.